Mumbled Ramblings and nothingness

The Narrative of Hurt Complain Whenever we tell a person about what someone did to us, which caused the  unexpected emotions - for example, anger, sadness, hurt, irritation, shock etc.  We always talk about what the other person did to us. How did they behave?  What did they say? " What an idiot "," How appalling! ",  " I didn't like it when... ", " It bothers me that... " What starts off as a rant or a vent is usually surface level.  And, let's face it, all of us need to blow off steam or release the emotions that we have held inside. Stories We all have an idea of what happened, and how it happened.  Sure you were interpret it as being wrong on your part but it didn't have to go that far. Yeah, it was a slip-up but wasn't it an over-reaction ? We over-estimate the way someone reacts and under-estimate our role in it.  We are a spectator or the willing participant of the situation. A situation we thought we had in our control, ...

 I don't want to be this way The Start I think this was that tiny little powerful whirlwind that refused to subside  in the ocean of my mind that floated with so many thoughts, patterns, phrases, observations etc. I want to be someone else. It always backed up with the different people I wanted to be who were or were not there in my life. Maybe they were influential,  maybe they were reliable, maybe they were hard-working and sincere, maybe they had good communication skills, maybe they could manage things well, maybe they were brilliant and looked upon.  "I want to be her right now, so badly." "I can't deal with myself, damn, if only I was a less of a screw up like her..." It all boiled down to one sentence really I want to change some parts of myself to become what I want.      (Assholes suffer from superiority complex. Do you know why? Check the mirror.) Deep down, I felt like I was resigned to accept myself the way I am.This harbored feelings of re...

                                Decisions, choices I was watching a TedxTalk by Derek Sivers, who talks about what life is? Ted Talk By Derek, Click to Watch it here He gives numerous examples such as "Life is all about choices!" and goes on to say things that prove it.  "Life is all about searching for happiness." "Life is all about time." and so on and so forth.  I think one of the most painful things we all carry is the consequences of a decision for the rest of our lives. That job offer, to blocking out people from your life. From moving to a new city to being in a romantic relationship. We make them, commit to them, lose them from our life. I think that's why our regret is rooted in the way we behaved, the things we did, the incidents that happened, the people we meet, and ultimately...   The choice we made at that time.  Our life is unwittingly living out the conseque...