Mumbled Ramblings and nothingness

 Its from Anurag's point of view. An ex colleague of mine  1) Everything has a motive :  Build good relationships with everyone. Gather as many as good relationships as possible. Try to gain information and knowledge about every topic they know of to make conversation.  But, getting only closer to those who they like, pleasing only those who can return the favor, impressing only the ones they care about, being a sweet talker to gain something from there, charming them to be in their good books.  My roommate loves hanging out and I am more of a homebody. She hates me for being this way and often criticises for my way of living. She gets close to people who have their own vehicles and love driving to new places, to see new things and looked down upon on me very harshly for not being this way.  She adopts their hobbies, their way of speaking, is ready to drink, stay out late nights, sleepovers at their place, agrees to every single thing they do, tries to reco...

 The first one was idealized love.   My first romance anime was the famous Kaichou wa Maid-sama ! I was obsessed with it, the plot, the characters, the songs, the jokes. After completing the anime, wanting more, I found out about manga and read it all, still not being good enough, I procedeed to read fanfiction, and finding out anything that is similar to it.  They were couple goals for me, extremely good at everything, can take up any challenge and succeed at facing any obstacle, being ambitious, smart and supportive of each other despite belonging to completely different worlds!  But, slowly my interest waned and then I found another hidden gem, called "Kimi no Todoke" also known as "From Me to You". I started reading the manga and immediately fell in love with it.  The second one was " Pure Love ". It is about two ordinary people wanting to fit in the world around them and form good relationships with the world around them who become attracted to each o...